They are holding me hostage in the so-called Secure Mental Health Unit due to my addiction, which they still refuse to treat. I am stuck here for a dirty UA; meanwhile, there are 30+ people walking the compound with dirty UAs pending. They tell me it’s different for me because I am a care level 3 mental health. So…. Because I have mental health issues, I need to be tortured by being placed in segregation away from regular communication with my family, my music, my clothes, my make up, etc.? I am also not allowed to shave back here, they don’t provide toothpaste and the showers do not have curtains.I haven’t brushed my teeth or showered since Monday afternoon when I was brought back here for the incident report I got Saturday for Friday night.
Before I was sent to the SMHU, I saw the same dudes go to Medical while high out of their minds three to four times in one day. Yet they not only did not go to the SMHU/SHU, but retained their grade 1 positions in the kitchen. And they wouldn’t make ME a cook because they said I get high and I have mental health issues!
I generally don’t ingest anything other than opioids, but I hadn’t gotten any for the past several days and I was sick, so I smoked some synthetic marijuana and it knocked me flat out. In the four-and-a-half years I was at Terre Haute and one and a half years at USP Tucson, I didn’t have a single dirty UA. I was doing well and I had a good job in the kitchen. Yes, I had a mental breakdown due to the conditions here at Butner and quit, but they were about to give me my job back when Psychology had me locked up.
I will be back here at least until I see the DHO but I’ve already received another incident report for refusing a celly because they tried to put a CL3 MH in with me. Dude looked scary so I refused. So, I will be back here two to four weeks. It’s pretty miserable and I am so so so so sick and they won’t even give me a Tylenol.