In April 2023, I lost hope and tried to hang myself in the lieutenant’s office holding cell. I have mental health issues: severe depression and trauma. i reported it to my case manager at Butner II and she responded by spreading my business to others and got me beat up, robbed and stabbed. Then I was designated back to FCC Hazelton, where my trauma originated.
In 2016, I got into it with some DC inmates and a fight turned into a crime scene. They tried to rape me and I fought my way out. I was stabbed in the back three times while the police was right there. They did nothing but swept it under the rug. When I wrote it up, I was threatened with a transfer back to the USP, where there’s a bounty on my head.
When I arrived back at Hazelton (from Butner), I disclosed my issues and was told “FIGHT, FUCK OR BE FRIENDS.” What type of advice is that to give when I talked to a psychologist (someone very knowledgeable about my situation)? Damn near everybody knows what I went through now. It’s hard facing people, looking people in the eyes. They judge me. Just last week, I was feeling down and ready to call it quits.