I have been raped in prison more times than I can count. have a sexual offense. And this has been the basis for inmates targeting me for abuse. That, and the fact I have a short, effeminate, slender, vulnerable physique. I look like a victim, as one of my rapists once told me. They intimidate me and tell me I will get stabbed or beaten or robbed and only they can protect me. BUT, that protection means I have to suck dick and take dick in the ass. And if I dont want to be protected anymore? Too bad. I still must stay on my knees at night or my “protector” will kill me. This is what my last six years at USP Terre Haute were like. They act like these pseudo protective-custody yards are safe, but there are predators everywhere. Honestly, I want to kill myself sometimes the abuse has been so bad. I can’t sleep at night because I have nightmares of being beaten and raped. I have been afraid for years to say anything or speak out because I fear what they will do next or how they will retaliate.
January 2026